When I thought of writing about my own experience with being handicapped, I hesitated a lot. I have given it a deep thought. In fact I sought the opinion of my close-circled friends. The pressing question or rather questions were, Why should I write? what to write? And for whom should my writing be addressed? For I simply can not claim that writing has become a prestige I possess.

Literary speaking it seems that I am unable to persuade myself not to mention others of having something worth reading.

A friend of mine simplified the issue. He clearly stated that the issue does not exceed writing a bout my agony with this misfortune. He said this by itself deserve the trouble of writing. He knows based on his knowledge of my health condition that handicap is a bitter and painstaking experience. He elaborated further and said writing about it might be like chatting and airing out one’s grievances momentarily. He is also of an opinion that it is a rich experience and its richness lies behind its bitterness and being painstaking.

Another friend saw the matter from a different perspective. He said if people’s life experience is looked upon as a taboo, which ought not to be penetrated, it is a unique experience, which should be documented so that people can read it, and benefit from the lessons in it.

I was encouraged even though I was of an opinion that my experience was a normal one and that thousands of people are experiencing it with minor differences from one person to another depending on the type of the handicap itself. Based on such reality my handicap by itself is not an area of extracting lessons however, its ramifications

And the interaction within the social parameter added a general dimension to it and made some personal situations appear beyond its individualistic nature. Dimensions that some people perhaps see in it images of people the only thing that connects between them was petty and feeling sorry for them.

In the midst of my attempt to come up with something through which I intended to reveal myself in a methodological manner and in a way that suites the preference of a category of people – those who read books and whose circle is gradually shrinking. Therefore I wrote, added and omitted however in the end the out come seemed below my expectation.

Therefore I folded my papers and put them in an envelope then pushed them in a drawer that contains some old papers of mine. Among these papers were my school certificates from fourth grade along with some official documents. There was one certificate that indicates that I am free of any contagious diseases and therefore eligible to enter the United States of America . Beside there was a short litter written to one of the local commercial banks applying for a job written in a very rudimentary language? This attempt came as a result of temporary circumstances, which led to the postponement of my trip to the USA along with the rest of my colleague to pursue my education.

The gist of the matter is my second friend did not forget the subject. He asked me after a couple of months about the “project” as he called my writing attempt. When he knew that I was not satisfied with outcome and that I thought that it is not worth reading. He interrupted me in a provoking manner and said you simply can not be the judge of your own writing.

He took the manuscript and called me the following day to say that he has gone through it and did not leave it until he read the last word. He commented I read it completely so that I do not think that he only read the last word. In his opinion as it appears it is also the opinion of experts in the field, it is suitable for publishing. However he blamed me for leaving out so many details.

I objected and further elaborated, that ruling out some relevant or irrelevant details was due to two reasons. First, prolonging in this type of writing especially to the readers who are not absorbed in literature might deprive the reader the interest of continuity to follow what is written thus might lead him to throw it aside. The second reason is that an individual’s life is a product of the past with its cumulative experiences that does not involve him only rather they are intertwined with privacy of other people who were participants in the particular events.

There are certain personal issues in our life when expressed and made accessible to public, may lead to embarrassment not only to the direct individual but it may include the party involved in making such incident.

I have kept in mind, the issue of recording the vocal points to serve the purpose of writing my experience therefore I focused on the vital parts of my experience with handicap and recorded what I thought will serve the objectives of my attempt thus did not pay attention to any details beyond that.

I hope that the readers will find some enjoyment and entertainment and reap some benefits worth the time spent reading it.